Feels so old these days, feels like I have grown up so so much.
This should be normal normal paranormal when you overcame such much circumstances and stuffs, which force you to grow when you wanna stay the same, acting innocent like a kid.
Growing up isn't that fun like what we all thought of, as a kinder kid, we always imagine how great will it be driving our own car, hanging out with friends, going out of parents sight, going to college, going to work, earning own money and bla bla bla.
The facts is that, I missed doing as a kid.
I missed a lot.
I hate all the responsibilities I need to carry on with.
I hate how the responsibilities that burden me so much, weighted my shoulder and dragged my feet.
I hate how the realistic society keep on pushing us, not to believe to anyone.
I hate how people don't trust me when I'm giving out all.
I hate when people don't listen to me, they actually just pretend to do so, or just listen to what's in their own mind.
I hate more when people pretend to care when they didn't give a shit.
I hate every argument, even my own over-rationalism, making me hard to accept other alternatives to a same stupid thing.
I hate my ego, making me like a proud peacock, when everyone else sees only a stupid crow.
I hate you too sometimes, because you give me that shit feeling.
I hate growing up knowing all this foolish life,
I hate getting old.
PS: Getting to 20 is really old, when teens play around with all playground thing, you just sitting there on a swing, swinging up and down, you're just too old for others, even for a swing, one-more-year-to-no-more-teen us.
