Spongebob Squarepants

Picture says a million words huh. :/

Where should I head next?

I'm getting so tired of chasing those figures at the end of every sem. 

It's almost the end anyway,  hang on!! 

2013

So, it's two o one three in a couple of hour,
Should I post something for it.

Let's review two o one two.
I mean mine of course. hahaha
I think I really grew up a lot.
Really a lot.
Exposed to super damn much things.
For those that are bad to me, thanks for making me stronger, teaching me good lessons, making known to me what life should be outside there, what's so-called reality.
AND
For those that are good to me, thanks for coming into my life and making it richer, fun and as great as ever.
Meeting good people are kinda luck-needing, and I suppose my luck ain't that bad at all.
And, those you-know-who-you-are people, thanks for being here always,
I might not be that strong of I ain't got you. *wink

I took up quite a lot challenges, was trying to struggle through hard and down times.
Sometimes I'm amazed of myself on how could I did those stuffs, managing EQ and IQ at the same time.
Balancing them up and not too over.
Every time I recall them I feel like I was such a pro. Opps
Of course, I do done few things that make myself regret, kinda massively.
Especially those made me just look like a big messy rubbishy mess, not knowing what step to take next.
And when facing those hard feelings, those things people doesn't really know or even care,
Perhaps I should find a way to get rid of them, like seriously a real way.
Some stuff like hypnotism? hmm. good point i think it is

So I decided to let everything get started again.
And I was thinking to make myself a diary, real-tangible-diary. :)
It should be feeling not bad, reading through pages of days went through, huh?

This year I'm not going for any countdown, not for Christmas nor new year,
I'm gonna count them down in my bed,
Let's sleep for a year, and let everything start over again.
Adjust, modify, balance and do whatsoever needed,

Here we go,
I'm here to take off again,
Let life live to the fullest,
Let's fly two o one three.


get me really high please :)

ps: I'm taking of that Cbox over >> which look like a recycle centre for all useless pointless comments. That's the way it should be right? Cleaner greener Penang! hahaha

WHAT'S UP

Few more days to last two months of 2012
ME, gotta fully utilize this last period in precious 2012

Gonna let my life PACKED,

Challenge, challenge challenge!!

Heavy eye bags dark eye circle,
Put horse come over!!!!!!!!

Leave no regrets and let life live.
RAWR

幸运草 ?

最近身边发生了一些不愉快的事

什么事？

就是很多的琐碎琐碎堆积的烦人事

家里，学校，朋友，学业

开始问自己，为什么人家这样，为什么我这样

人家有梦追，大大咧咧地追

我也有梦，但我当缩头乌龟， 我力不从心

人家学崖缤纷精彩，我十年如一

人家环游世界，我槟城人连槟城都不会走

很可怜吧

虽然是很羡慕，但打开双眼发现

我也没这么可怜啦

其实我们都是幸运的

最近我看见了很多不一样的人生

我看见

一个同胞家庭，6个成员，月收入1千左右

月供车款600，保险，一餐只有一种菜肴

2个孩子在小学阶段求学

跟老板借薪不成

怎么活？

另一个中年同胞，

父母纷纷去世，剩下自己单身和弟弟和家庭

还有政府赔偿的2间组屋

弟弟私吞组屋，瞧不起他赶他出家门

变卖1间，自己家庭住一间

同胞无谓争家产，沦为流浪汉

露宿海边亭子，招客人玩水上游戏为生

偶尔做做杂工，吸吸毒

再一小孩，一岁多的孩子

跟着父母露宿外头，睡的是装电视机的纸箱

一岁多的孩子，还不会叫爸爸

因为根本没有人教他

一岁多的孩子，他会捡铝罐给母亲，拿到她面前踩扁

因为他每天学到的就是跟母亲到处捡铝罐

如果有一天，他见到一叠钞票和一个铝罐

猜猜吧 他捡哪样？

我听说他牛奶喝不完，隔天就喝冷牛奶

而且很出奇的，他并没有像其他小孩闹肚子

仿佛身体早已预备面对这样的生活

平时见他趴趴走，就一个人玩，不哭也不闹

想想吧

一岁的我们都在做什么？

其实有没有好奇为什么他们生活如此艰辛？

原因很简单，

其实他们本来住在租来的房子，后来好像被赶了出来

好像是因为没钱交租

我相信与后者有关

那小孩的父母都吸毒

我只能说那孩子很不幸，非常不幸
如此乖巧的孩子，只因为出生在这样的环境
就这样拖累了他的一生
我妈说这是他前世欠的债，注定这世还
他出生的那一天，因为来不及赶到医院
就在公厕里来到残忍的世界


想回我们自己吧
我们经常在问为什么世界是如此的不公平
为什么别人含着金汤匙出生，一辈子无忧无虑
为什么别人比我们过的好
为什么我们必须妥协

想想吧
自己是多么的幸运
我们拥有了许多人没有的幸福家庭
一辈子疼爱我们的父母
永远不会背叛我们的家人
一起共患难的朋友
别人垂涎求学上学的机会
很多人缺少的日常最最基本的需求
很多人每天只求的三餐温饱

我们丰衣足食，有瓦遮头

已经赢过胜过很多很多很多人了

不是我突然间变得如此感性
而是突然醒觉
我其实拥有太多了
只是一直身在福中不知福

你也一样吗？

Whatever It Is

Today is exactly two weeks after the tsunami disturbance.

And yes, two weeks just passed like this.

I can't even remember what have I did this sem break,

So lifeless and stuff-les,

I don't know what I did to my 4weeks precious holiday. 

So sad :(

It should be SOUNDS like rechargings, rests and vacations for further momentum

Lets have some examples.

Eg 1, daily sleeps at dawn and wakes at noon ;

Eg 2, facebook, endless tv shows, daily continuous drama ;

Eg 3, games, autistics and fats

Sounds relaxing and easygoing huh ? ^.^

IT'S actually waste of time and adolescency, stop bluffing yourself

So so bad :(

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Today is the result releasing day (which is like shit), 

And got my timetable (which is like the king of shits),

Suddenly I feel like nothing is better than the shits now.

I can't help but have to surrender,

Because you have been top for too long,

You don't know (i mean FORGOT) how it feels like falling down.

Everybody says you are doing great, 

What to worry about? Hey, you're a FULL scholar!

People envy your performance,

PRAISES.

Dong.

Then you ended up actually believe and thought that you are of their saying,

BUT, in fact you are just overestimating yourself,

Overstating your abilities.

You thought you are still on the way, doing great than ever.

BUT, you will suddenly found out the grievances that probably tears your eyes

Probably in a case like this (status post by an ex schoolmate)

Its like a tradition that every assignment you get, you'll have either-an OKU member/-comatose patient/-Miss in action/-photostat machineor the most famous among all.. -"Mr.I-DID-ALOT-LIAO" (2 lines of double spacing sentence with extra large fonts of 36) :DCollege life is AMAZING! ♥

Yeah, funny yet so TRUE, shooooo muchie amazing you CAN'T stand, 

Will laugh when you read this, will cry when you have did it nearly all alone.

And the worst out of all,

The efforts you paid is NOT equivalence to the turn outs.

The upsets that make you feel desolate,

Because you are losing your directions.

Where is the passion?

Motivation?

Whoever still remember the goals and target set at the very beginning of the first sem?

It's way too easy to say, 

Yeah, imma reset all the mistakes and flaws, everything starts all over like new again, new targets, goals, objectives.

IT'S NOT AS EASY AS IT SEEMS.

*big big sigh

ANYWAYs,

life gonna move on, time gonna keep on tick, 

everything gonna stay ongoing and,

you have no choice at all.

SO,

earth is still on the orbit,

sky isn't falling down,

breathe deep and continue doing the best.

THERE'S ALWAYS A RAINBOW AFTER EVERY POUR

PUT ON A BIG SMILE FOR THE BEST

:D

If it's the end

Tsunami alert is out again. After few years since 9.1 magnitude.
Nothing much to say, if it's the end,
I want to say, I love u, all of my friends.
and my parents.
and you.
:)

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Getting along, Life

When i finally decided to renew my blog post,
Suddenly I realised it has been one whole month since my last post,
And I didn't planned to schedule my post like this, anyway
Hahaha
There's always time when I wanted to post something planned, places I went, people i met, funny things that happened, memorable days, and of course heart-tearing lessons
But, there's always a thinking telling me to wait,
accumulate all and post them at once,
Or always giving excuses to myself like,
I'm too tired after the tests and assignments, I need some rest.
Or the worst part, I will write it tomorrow.
YES. The word tomorrow. Then the day after tomorrow. Then the day after tomorrow's tomorrow. That's how when nothing get done.
Pathetic. Hahaha
So, be prepared for a long long post for this.


Suggestion: Read on or press the X on top right of your screen now.

So now,
26/03/12 The People I Met 

Yes, JJ Lin, in Gurney new wing. I know the picture is poor. It's already 5megapixel. SO sad :(
The amazing part is I was having my finals. Hooray!
HAHAHA. Cool right, and sincerely hope I didn't screw up my finals. X)
This was on 26/03/12, where my finals fell on 26,28,30.
See that interval.
Yeah it's actually helping us (last-minute-kakis) by giving extra time to burn our eleventh-hour-midnight-oil,
Where i used it as an excuse to do my FIRST star-chasing-dream ( It has never been my dream though, I'm not the type like shouting, 老公我爱你！, seriously)
Hahahaha. Seriously serious. There were crazy fans shouting this in the crowd, despite that they were in a 988 Live Broadcast or even on the TV, I'm not that sure anyway.
JJ HAS AMAZING VOICE! His singing on LIVE was just like playing out from player.  *melts*

Picture taken on my way back to carpark on 3rd floor. 
Before leaving I was at, ermm, actually an unnoticeable spot, right beside the tiang with red-bordered-black-coloured-white-worded-poster. Hee
Look at that CROWD. Those heads that look like matches, I mean the matches that can burn your house. Oops X)
My own personal estimation, around a thousand people in new wing that day.
Proven: JJ Lin's 魅力无法挡
Of course with my 'pro' camera skill, I only managed to catch part of the crowd.
The crowd conquered the ground floor, and even the first, second, third floor railing. wowww?


Anyway, a same kind of celebrity-promotion activity done on the same stage on the same week Friday.

And this will be
30/03/12 The People I didn't Meet

I'm not in Gurney that day, this is from a neighbour worker of my ex-working company who took it when she was working and posted it on her facebook.
He is Daniel Lee, if you don't know, a Malaysian Idol winner. He has quite a good voice I think.
My mum likes him. Because he defeated a Malay participant by his talent. Hahahah. We watched the process when he won the champion. Errr, couples of years ago though.
Anyway, the crowd was poor I think =X
Huge difference in comparison. Haha.

Okay, NEXT.
31/03/12 Thing I Never Dreamed to Touch

YES. A TRUMPET! This is not the real object though, I get from the Goooogle. Haha
I joined a association's band called, Youth Band. Seriously, it's YOUTH Band, I get shocked when the members are of 9 years old onwards. A lot of youthfulness right.
That's how I feel like getting older. Haha.
This will be long story if you ask why I would join it. *Skip
Back to the trumpet, I really never thought of 'contacting' with trumpet, it's not even my dream, like what I dreamed to get was Saxophone.
I prefer Saxophone sexy sound a lot more than Trumpet's. And the functioning way differ a lot too, too hard for me, I blow most air than the sound, buzzing so hard, so sad. :(
But, since I was assigned to this hard task, I will try my best. :')

And NOW. Freebies X)
01/04/12 The April Fool Freebies

The very last minute notification from him during the night before the day. FREE movie ticket! X)
So the story goes like this.
25k tickets to be given by over 20 cinema branches in Malaysia, to maximum of 4tickets per person
= ABOUT 250 people can take the redemption only
SO, we went to queue in the early morning when the mall's light haven't been on and the escalators were not even start to operate.
And, on the same time, IT'S APRIL FOOL DAY u know, when we walked out from the lift and see no crowd outside the cinema, we thought it was a prank, and a waste of our effort.
BUT, as we walk towards the counter,
Oh yeah, it's not a prank. Lol
And, it took half hour for us to redeem the ticket.
ONLY two tickets anyway, because the free tickets were only available for 2.00pm movie on that day
Means that we don't get to watch all movies as we thought we could, DAY DREAMING.

So this is it. TWO pieces of free tickets after half hour queuing. Lame I know. Hahahahah
I wanted to watch 'Mirror Mirror' which was not available in the given list. Sad case. :(

I always loved fairy tales story with a happy happy ending since small times.
I don't know how many times had I watched Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs when I was small.
Replaying the tape (the time when we don't have any CDs yet) all over again.
Hahaha. Faithful right? X)
And due to the consequences, we picked 'Marrying Mr Perfect', a HK comedy that laugh your ass out. X)

Of course heart-touching story too, which was too much can-be-found-in-fairy-tales-story.
Hahahah. In short, not realistic (own opinion) but a great movie though.
Good medium for stress-relieving need. X)

Then. NEXT.02/04/12 The Food I Love

YES. It's the Sushi King Bonanza craziness!! X)
I thought i won't have the chance to enjoy it this time, I DON'T have the member card.
But the good news came when he successfully borrowed one from his friend.
Awwww. Salmon. Sluuuurp!

This is what normal people will get during the Bonanza period, again picture from the Gooooogle. Hee.
And for us, to avoid lunch time long long long queue, we decided to go after lunch time about 3pm.
And what put me down was, me and him, TWO people, ate EIGHT plates of sushi only.
How sad was that :((
Okay, the reason: We ate something before going to Gurney, avoid gastric and over-hungry.
The sushi rice was too filling, but if we just pick and eat the sushi top = waste of food. SIGH
So the turn out was disappointing. Hahaha. But in a positive way,
We SAVED our purse X)

AND, the Genie in a letter.
08/04/12 The Miracle 

Things are much more worthwhile when you lost them once.
And when the price paid, lesson learnt, tears dropped, strength regained,
And to be told that you gonna lost them for a second time,
The experience and heart-pinching feeling were nowhere to get.
Then the good news of almost-regaining them is indescribable, nobody will feel that exact excitement on the moment upon the miracle call, no one but only yourself.
Appreciate everything you had, whether it will be better or worse the next moment, at least you had enjoy the moment you had them in your hands.
Keep my fingers crossed again.
:))))))))))

09/04/12 The Thing Called Inspiration

I read a blogpost about, 'Why I Regret getting Straight A1 in SPM'
I bet the candidate was not of our generation. Much older times. Haha
At the moment, I was very curious on what to regret on a 16 A1 result in your SPM?
You will be the star shining all the way, don't you?
So I spent about 15mins to investigate it. Such a long post you know.
But curiosity kills the cat, it drives me keep on reading.
Hahahah.
And suddenly I felt so damn lucky that I'm not a 16A1 student.
I would die from a 3-5hours-everyday-sleep X)
Read it if you feel the same. HAHAHA.
Out of expectation, the main post doesn't catch much of my attention,
It's the comment of the post, the longest comment at the page bottom,
Even longer than the main post, and heart-touching story

What will you do if your mum died? And your dad remarried with a woman with 6children.

And then divorced and married again a 26years old woman who is actually capable of becoming your sister

I actually read this comment for 20mins plus I think. 

Really adores the girl much, of what she had gone through, and how she get her life settled.

The comment was really long, especially in my post, but I don't want any of you reading this to miss a great story. 

This really inspired me much. Spare some of your time and read on :)

Hello? Hello? Guys? Yeah, you all need to calm down a bit. See, we’ve all got some views on stuff. And the way I see it, its pretty ‘brilliant’! You guys showed so much passions by using all sorts of languages when expressing your feelings. ‘Well done’! Hope you’re ‘proud’ 
And thing is. While reading this, I cant help but thinking yess! This is so true. Not in my time though. I’ve heard this story from some friends. And it was much sadder when you listen to it, rather than reading it off the internet. So I think maybe some of you may have felt it. Some kind of connection with what this guy wrote. And maybe the rest didn’t. Thus, the differences and the mean words you guys used.
But let me tell u my story. I took my SPM back in 2010. It was horrible year for me. Cause on that yr I moved from this really nasty school in PD, to this really high-class school in Seremban. Why its high-classed? Well it earned ‘CLUSTER’ title for the amazing achievements over the years. Its kinda big for TEKNIK schools. And things were so different there, compared to my last school. I didnt think I was gonna go for it, but my friends in PD, told me I should try it. They thought if it didnt work, I can always come back. Which was kinda silly. But they gave me courage, and added to my really-wanting-to-change the view desperation, I got transferred.
First day was tough. Kids at my new school, acted all weirdy when I mentioned my last school. And one teacher even belittled me in his classes. He’s super-cute. Married and has 6 kids, another was on the way, but he’s really cute. He acted all fierce, and ready to kick some butts all the time, but at the end, we all agreed he was really nice. Anyway, back to the story. I really hit it off with the boys in class when one day, this guy came to me and hit me in the head, from behind, bcause he thought I was another girl who he teased everyday. Then, when he realized I wasn’t her, he quickly apologized. But I walked away, cause I thought it didn’t matter. I was having a rough day, and what the boy did, really was the least thing I cared about. But interesting happened. The boy kept coming at me for the rest of the day, pushed a lollipop to my face, saying sorry over and over. And bcause of him, after that day, I didnt feel so outcasted anymore.
Thing is I had always been the one with the brain in my family. So when my father proposed for me to move away, to be honest I never thought I would survive in a new place. Truth is my form 4 final exam’s result isn’t so shiny. I got a C for physics, and Bs for english and BM. And the rest? All the other 7 subjects got flushed into Es. Yes, I was worse than bad. But funny thing was even though my result was unbelievably disgusting for all u glamorous people, I WAS one of the best student in that school.
But my father thought I could do better than that. Honestly, holding on to that, I managed to grab the best number in my class after the first test in new school. It was months after I moved in. And while mingling with all my new friends, I did some catch-ups on my studies, and its been some crazy months too. Throughout the process, I found out that these new people weren’t so special either. Turned out my former school provided way more technicalities to us students than my once-current-school. In there, it was more theory stuff. So when it was time to do our little assignments involving some circuits drawing, or assembly some components to certain circuits, the kids were kinda clueless. Lucky for them! I was there!  In my previous school, the teachers treated us like we were some retarded kids. They taught us steps after steps, very carefully so that our brain will not be overloaded, somehow. While in my new school, kids were treated like they were superficials, and were a group of MR and MS KNOW IT ALL. Like a bunch of Einstein juniors. Its kinda funny really.
But whats really funny was after my second test, after I still managed to get the number 1 spot in class, all these classy kids started to come to me for study sessions. And I tell you, that number 1 spot that I got the second time? The result for my second test? I didnt even try to get it. Things just gotten easier after my first test. I swear! Mybe it was bcause I’ve been so well-behaved in class bcause I didnt want the teachers to speak about my past, so I managed to learn so much. And holding on to that alone, have got me thru without even studying. But it really was fun.
I didnt pay too much work on studies at home. I’d went out whenever. This was cause I didnt have a mother, I mean the actual one, and my father occasionally spent time with my stepmother at night, and never home during the day. And I honestly didnt have limits on anything! I can even skip school if I wanted to. My father would question, but he wouldnt push me, bcause it was my choice, he thought. And I know he should have been tougher, but I didnt have a mother remember? Too pushy will make me feel crappy okay? Besides it was my choice to study in that nasty school in PD, and then I listened to him and moved away, what else can he possibly ask for?
But as much as interesting it sounded, I am a girl wthout a mother. I cant stay in the same house with another woman who wanted to be my mother bcause then, I will turn rebellious. I didnt participate in much mother-talks between my friends. I didnt have a relationship with my father either. So whats left? Yep, school! So that was that. I went to school everyday to get away. It made sense to me then, but now while telling u people this, I felt kinda lousy. Like I wasnt rebellious enough. Like I was fine with all of it. Well, let me tell you straight up. It wasnt!
Couple of weeks bfore my SPM trial, my father n my stepmother got a divorce. I was the only one in the court besides them. No other children were there. (I have 3 siblings, and my stepmother has 6 children.) Maybe bcause I can afford to skip school or so. Maybe thats why my father wanted me to come along. And after all these tiring process, it finally ended. I went home with my father, not feeling a thing. Not being affected by the divorce at all. As if that didnt happen to my family.
Later I got a text from my former mother, saying she was upset and I didnt care. She was mad at me bcause I didnt even cry at the court. She said I was nasty, and thought I didnt love her. Well, thats just so full of crap. I did love her. Still do. I mean, the only reason we didnt live together was bcause she got kids. And those kids were not meant to have new sisters and brothers. They got nasty all the time! Thats why my father got us kids separated homes. It wasnt my fault if I didnt show her emotions. I was way pass that. I showed enough emotions when she took my father away. And I showed way, way much emotions when my mother died, and she went around and decided to settle down for the third time, with my father this time, and it was like 3 months after my mother’s death. I shed too much tears, and I was done with it! But well, we still texted and called each other til this very day. Sure I didnt come to her when I had problems, but if I needed to feel like I’m a person, she was alwys there.
Anyways, back to the school stuff. That divorce really affected me somehow. It sure didnt do much to me on after a few days. But weeks later? The fact suddenly hit me. I will never have a mother! Seems like mothers are never stick around long enough around me. Even an imaginary mother suddenly lost her way and failed to comfort me when I was sad.
This was affecting my studies too. I rarely focused in class. And result? Well I scored an E in my add maths. Sejarah was a D. The whole class got it bad too. Not as bad at me. But well, what definition of bad anyways? For a moment, the whole class went quiet. It was funny really. Its like if you drop ur needle, or something even tinier and lighter, not a single person can miss the sound.
Then, Syaraf, he has a wonderful voice,  he went to the whiteboard and wrote words. It was really inspiring, and we all made a pack that day, that we were going to try harder for the final exams. And we did. At least I thought I was. Sure I didnt spend my nights studying. I didnt stop watching TVs, and study more. I didnt read books that I’m supposed to read, instead I read some novels and some silly mags. I stayed up late at nights, listening to songs, and write poems about it. But I did not study. What I did was paying attention at school. And between classes, I would ignore my friends and do my own light reading. Sure it didnt help much, but it was alot for me. I didnt feel encouraged at home. Cause no one was really there. But in school? Well, you kinda feel inspired to be all nerdy, and make guys like you for behaving so well.. 
But anywys, I did take some times off of my busy schedule, and studied during the night bfore every paper I was going to take. Sejarah was different. I went to school with my friends when it was closed. My main goal was to meet my crush, but it was so quiet then, so everybody was in the mood to study. So I did some readings first and told them the story of the past, the history. And when I missed a few points or so, my friends would corrected me. Bcause they have studied it, and I didnt. So to them I was refreshen up their memories, and to me, it was a give and take. Haha.
After the final’s over, I went away to stay with my sister. She just got a daughter, and I was going to be a babysitter for her. Theres nothing for me in it, really. I wasnt going to get paid. But I’d do anything to get away from my father, or from staying with my grandma. So when the result came out, I wasnt in Seremban to check it out. My father went there, meeting all my friends. He texted my sister later, that I got 7 As and 3 Bs. It isnt much, but who cares? I didnt even do much, so I deserved it, right? Well maybe not. Maybe I deserved a little less, but pls dont get all jealous okay.
Anyways the 3 Bs were Add Maths, Lukisan Kjuruteraan and Chemistry. Hahah! Laugh on me cause I really did like all 3 subjects. Especially LK, man I had such a great time during LK classes!
So the moral of all this was, you didnt do it bcause of yourself, you never did. Great things that you achieve mostly are bcause of someone else. I didnt change school bcause of me. I did it bcause my father wanted too, and bcause my friends ‘hated’ to see me around anymore. And I didnt try to get As during my first test in my new school bcause of me. I did it bcause I thought I’d prove all them people that they’re wrong. And of course after that, I studied bcause I was supposed to teach some of my friends stuff. But that was it. Until now, I alwys studied bcause of someone else. If you do things for yourself, of course you wont feel anything.
Of course putting all these hard works on the SPM has been a regret to you. You were only doing it for yourself! You didnt picture it as a gift to your parents, or as an inspiring ideas to be planted in the future SPM candidates, or even to your siblings. You didnt think hard enough my friend.
Sure we’re not going to get anywhere with a laid-back attitude, and carelessness. But who says getting all worked-up, and trying too hard can get you get things? Try it man. I’m continuing it. Still doing it now. I studied for my friends, bcause universities can get you lazy, and my friends especially the boys, well they apparently love their beds more than the classes. But me? Still finding classes are the getaways. Still finding that the best way to get a hand on these knowledges is to get it first-hand from the lecturers.
And guess what? 4.0 first semester. 3.86 the second. Again 4.0 the third semester. This was cause I’ve been spending loads of times studying with my crush (and his friends), so I kinda need to make him feel like I achieved a great pointer was bcause of him, and then this semester? 3.57….. Its the saddest I know. Well, I got an excuse for it! I’ve been working on some robotics stuff for a competition in Singapore. Its big! Thus, failure to attend classes. But hey, the lecturers impressed! And once I managed to squeeze myself into a class, a teacher told me I was great. Thats a get-going for me! I know its not much. My relationship with my father still sucky. But he got a new wife now. A 26 yr old. She could be my sister!  JK. But everytime I got good pointer, when some of my friends wouldnt even post their results home, I did it. With proud. I know I did it for him too. After all the hard times I gave him, he deserved it.
So why dont you? Find something more to keep you going. Even evil things like getting back to your aunties for being unfriendly to you. That could be something. And as far as your social lifes? Well if you think you cant do it, why put yourself in it? 16 subjects are alot man! Even for modern Einstein. Sure its mind-blowing. But why? What you got to prove anyway? That ur brain is spacious enough to fit the entire 16 books in it? Man, get a life! 

Take a breath, take a break

After a whole lot series of incidences, it had finally come to a pause.
Surprises came and gone in just split of seconds.
Tired and exhausted me. hmphhhh
:(

I fell for this song when i first heard it.
Love the lyrics, love the melody, love the beats.
And yes, another great acoustic cover, i actually prefer this version than the original one.
Somehow it gave me more throbs and .. sensation?
Hahaha. Who cares right. Just a nice version to share.
:)

(the former and latter has no direct relationship though)

ps: take a break (only singular), take some Kit-Kat (maybe maybe), and it's another busy and a tough week to go.


and
HELLO, WEEK FIVE.

2012

                              2011                                                                                                                           

i started my new life chapter
i did many stuffs that never ever thought of doing before
i gained lots of courage to make my own decisions
i learnt to take and give
i learnt never regret for what i decided
i finally knew what's that so called grown-up feeling

i found out the most important thing in my life

i had my best birthday ever with all the important people of my life
i had finally countdown-ed on a new year eve

i really really appreciate
for all that happened last year
every scene every person every incidents
and everything i been through
hope they will remain vivid in my mind

                              2012                                                                                                                           

2011 is my life turning point
2012 would be the rest part after it
nobody knows when will 2012 ends
any second any moment anytime

so let's make a promise here

mistakes will not be repeated
failures stick not with me
confidence and discipline
joy and happiness
please be with me

and those important people to me
something i wanna confess
if you think you are those person
and you are reading this
i wanna tell YOUs
I LOVE YOU !!
i can be nothing without you guys
ps: i had confessed before the world ends and no regret left :)



and please fulfill my wishes this year, dear 2012

 yeah. that's what all girls want :)

 and this is what i want. play it right play it like i play it :)

 i have been seeing sunsets since past few years, and now i wish for a sunrise, with my special one :)

 and i wanna be STRONG. not just plain strong, i want be super strong, like no tear gland ever existed

 everyday i lived, everything i have been through, i missed them.

now every little things come to me is appreciated :)

 this is the hard part, i wonder what will make me laugh until i cry, maybe it's you?

 this is the second hard part, im gonna FIND myself. be myself and LIVE myself :)

 and this is the HARDEST part. my dream. far far faraway :(

2012 is the end of the world, remember?

BUT, i survived bird flu, mad cow disease, 9/11, swine flu 

2012? BRING IT ON.

CHLORINE

CH35 ?
i still remember the chemical formula i think
not bad uh?
hahahahah


i drank LOTs and LOTs of chlorine water today
how clumsy am i
:(

because i accidentally fell into a big big, i mean HUGE bucket of, um, diluted chlorine
i know u're curious about how huge is it
hmm
not really big la
just about an olympic size bucket
not really big right?

im seriously freaking exh-a-u-sted right now
with some diz-z-y in my head
and whole stomach full of chlorine
and running nose
and probably sour arms and legs for tomorrow
BUT
i've seriously really really enjoyed it
nothing too much
just like i feel like alive again, i mean ,
REVIVED.

thank god.

hello, the girl in black

feel like being in black from top to toe again?

yea, feel like earning pocket money again.

why?

no money no life

:(

opportunity cost?

sleep at dawn wake early at the noon

tired?

YES !!

enjoy?

SORT OF. hm. YEA 

:D

feel like getting older?

DEFINITELY YES. 

D:

梦

没有人告诉你，梦是什么样子，它可以很光鲜，也可以很节俭，平凡和灿烂，不一定是两个对立面。很多时候，简单的幸福，也会是一个了不起的抱负。



人们只是说，梦就是尽量飞，远远的，然后不要再回来。

 
没有人告诉你，热闹的城市，人群和捷运，更多的却是寂寞。生活，有时候要习惯一个人，习惯桌上的一盏灯，要很努力才能把很多事情都完成。



 
人们只是说，梦就是勇敢追，在偌大的世界里找更好的位置。


a post from antony's blog



kinda missed the classes

he said scold origins from care


should be glad because he once cared about this an ordinary out-of-hundreds student
:)

what's going on

these are accumulated, due to my lazyness, oops :o
so they have been hidden for so long :o

and they should have came out by now :D

three weeks ago, friday
we went to FRUUZE @ straits quay
i love frozen yogurt!!! :D
then we have no place to go, and that's it, gurney.
secret recipe's carrot cake, someone told me it was very nice
human's taste buds arent that similar D:

FRUUUUUUZE ! *sluuurp

it just looks so harmony :D

it should be a good place to study too, at the green sofa there, and there is only few customers on weekdays, only if im willing to pay the bill every week here. D:

chocolate yogurt with oreos and mango yogurt with chocolate; seleng's and mine :D

ouh. and look, by a professional photographer. HERM *puke

and there was a vase of champagne roses there, and it is a blur. :( (ps: it did reminded me of the ribbon-done-rose)

say FRUUUZE! :D

toys r us. so cuteee. the bear? im saying both kay! hee :D

carrot cake, i'd love that top layer of cheese. :)

on the same day, it's my little cousin's birthday
she's only one year olds, little tiger pincess :D

happy birthday again :D

buffet style = eat all you can :D

snake and lion on sandwiches, im a vegetarian :D

rainbow fruits stick! aw this is so cute.

she's tiger baby, a tiger year baby :D

cupcakes anyone?

her pressies :D

the tiger princess. i love you, you love me, we are happy (tiger) family :D

my sister and another little cousin. and yes, no doubt please, that's my sis.

grandma and the monkeys :D

two weeks ago, thursday
we paid a visit to Dari-Dari again, for the 'sake of study' :D
(actually i lost my h.e notes, and seleng lent me hers, and thats where i copied my whole set of notes all over again which is 50 plus paged, and seleng was trying hard to revise her econs and not being disturbed by meee. lol. -.-)

this is caramel machiato, seleng's love :D

and this is mine, kinda artistic caffe mocha (things always look better than they really taste like, sigh)

and there, the prove. im so sad to say goodbye to my ex-colourful notes, now what im having is only black and white ones. :(

two weeks ago, friday

i was by the beach again,
what im saying? i am there everyday, lol
but i finally feel like studying!
um, that should be a '?' instead of '!'
that's what i have done
there is an one-sided-eye on the top right and too bad i didnt take any photo of it,
next time :)

i drew this. then i asked my classmates the next day and no one believe it. :(

have a closer look. i should have taken design course instead of accountancy right? just kidding :((

one week ago, wednesday
there was a crowd in gymnasium, at least seven ppl inside it i think
and all the equipment are fully occupied, sigh
then we have no idea where to continue our day :(
since we planned to sweat for that day,
why not youth's park?
um, at least we can jog right.
(actually we didnt because it rained, god says: rest for today)

yes, we jog here. LOL. feel like being a kid again? :(

my leg's skin colour doesnt fit with my hand's. aw

what you read there? i read: kanak-kanak 12 tahun ke atas :D

i was at top of the..steel? there was a spider in front of me. it was near the second yellow paint dot counted from the right, can you SEE it? it JUMPED on my phone and almost get me unbalanced, phew. ps: i didnt scream :D

aw. seleng, you look so tall! :D

three days ago

i went to my beach and i did this to my nails
french on my fingers and shatter on my toes
of course i cant do this,
my mom's friend, auntie molly did it :D

the black shatter is kinda yeng, i should have picked red as the base D:

i done it by the beach, proven. :D

 the end, temporarily